June 30, 2005

I've Been Bitten Again

Reading Current (a local events magazine), I was struck again. I was attacked by my own desire to perform music in front of an audience. The trouble is, I'm not very good, and this dream really stresses me out because I can't see how it'll ever become reality.

There are all of these bands listed in Current, and they're mostly just local (or semi-local) bands that won't ever get a record contract, but they're having fun, and they're playing gigs. You don't have to be a huge success to get gigs, but you have to do something, and I'm not sure what that something is.

So, after talking about it with Keleigh last night, I've come to a new goal. Something that should be reachable, and it should give me the chance to see if this is really something that I want to continue to pursue. I'm going to, in the non-baby-chasing time that I have, practice two acoustic songs, and when I'm very comfortable with these two songs, I'll play them at an open-mic night somewhere. There are a million open-mic nights in the area, so I'm sure I can find one to play at.

That way, I can perform in front of people, I can play some music, and I can get my fix. If it works out, and I enjoy it, I can do two more songs, and move from there.

June 27, 2005

More Babies = Faster Time

Henry is two weeks old today, and while two weeks isn't a grand expanse of time, it's enough to amaze me at how quickly time is passing. The summer of Marion's birth moved slowly, with Keleigh and I home from work spending hours just being with our new daughter, but this summer is different. This summer is fast, Henry's growing quickly, Marion's walking, the days are sweeping past like they were little more than hours.

I imagine that second children are like this (I'm a second child). They speed up the process, they make the world spin faster by splitting your attention, by interacting with their older sibling. Marion was an only child, but just for a long moment. It doesn't look like there are going to be many long moments for a while.

This fast life is going really well though, amazingly well. I expected it to be much harder than it has been. Marion seems to have taken the opportunity to learn to walk, sleep better, talk more, and go to sleep & naps easier. I've found that waking early with Marion is nice, because it gives us both some 'together' time where I'm not busy doing all sorts of things. Marion goes to sleep at about 8 o'clock, so from then until Keleigh and I go to bed, we have time alone with Henry. It's quite a setup, and I'm the happy dad.

June 25, 2005

Weird Girl

Marion loves salad beans. Boring beans.
I give her a strawberry, and she makes the 'icky' face.

June 24, 2005

Feels Like A Family


When Keleigh and I had Marion, life changed. We were no longer just a 'married couple', we were a family unit all of our own. There were more considerations to ... uh ... consider, and we had to take care of the three-of-us, instead of the two-of-us.

Now, with Henry added, it really feels like a family. Even with only one child there was a bit of the not-really-a-full-family feeling, but there's no doubting it with two children. We've earned the right to be called a family.

June 22, 2005

My Favorite Toy: Melon


Watch as I show my dominance over this fruit!



I will lift it, because I am huge and it is so small!



Or, maybe I will just stand above it looking amazingly cute in my skirt-shorts-things.

Names on the Run

Just having named a child for the second time, I'm pretty interested in the thoughts that go into the process of naming a child. It's a unique event, naming a child, and it feels weird. Who am I to give this child the name that they will use forever? What suggests that I am best suited to describe them in one word? It's weird. It's strange enough that I made Keleigh say Henry's name whenever anyone asked in the first few hours.

A couple days after the birth, Keleigh showed me a very cool website from the social security administration that gives the popularity rankings of names back to 1880, using census data. It's great, especially for a guy that likes data.

In the year I was born, Jeremiah was the 81st most popular name given to male children. In 2004, Marion wasn't in the top 1000 names, and Henry is 110th in 2005. Interesting eh?

They also have a page for 'popular names for twins in 2004'. How great!

June 19, 2005

A Note About This Father

*this message was written by Keleigh, Jeremiah's wife*

Jeremiah, we really are parents now for real, huh? A whole year with Marion has shown me what an incredible father you are. I'm so constantly impressed by your maturity and determination and love that have together allowed you to let Marion teach you patience, flexibility, and tolerance. I know Henry will have all sorts of things to give you, too.

Thank you so much for choosing me to share this journey with you. I am so honored. And so in love. The life before us is amazingly rich. Let's savor it.

Happy Father's Day.

Love,
Keleigh

June 15, 2005

Babyland

Everything is moving right along. Henry is doing wonderfully, he's really opening his eyes and taking in the world. Marion is very interested, wondering what happened to Momma's belly, and who this new interesting baby is. She keeps offering to share, diapers, food, toys, cell phones. She's going to be a great big sister.

Marion's sleeping better too, as if in response to our need for her to do so. It's time honey, time to rest more, your parents need it. She knows that we need to spend energy on other things now, so she's spending more time playing happily by herself. She's such a big girl now.

And Henry, he's such a little guy. What a great addition to our family. I have a son.



I can't imagine what fun we'll be having in the years to come, it's all such a dream to me right now. To be a father to a son, it's such a big job, and I really hope that I can do it well. Right now though, it's time to start. Time to bring this boy another day into the world, and show him love, and teach him that being a man doesn't mean that you have to be cold, men can love, men can express themselves, and it's okay. We can be tough too, but there's a time for that, and it's not right now.

June 13, 2005

Henry Robert Lee

11:57 am - June 13th
7 lbs 12 oz
Born at home, in the water, into my hands.

Nowhere to be Found

If it so happens that I drop off the face of blogging for a while, it may mean that the baby was born. I just wanted to let you knoe. Don't panic, I'll put up pictures as soon as I can, but I thought it would be a good idea just to check in and let you know that all is well, and I'll let you know.

June 08, 2005

Life With Two

It's going to be pretty different, I imagine, this life-to-be with two children. Marion's just about walking, and she'll have a younger sibling that won't even be able to hold their own head up for a while. My full-time-fathering, which has gone on for six months now, has become pretty stable. I feel like I have things under control, I've learned the ropes, and I can do things now that I wasn't able to do a couple months ago.

It's all going to get a big shake-up soon. Our baby is telling Keleigh that it's almost time, and the baby's the one that decides. Due dates are just guesses, this baby is coming when they're ready. And I'm excited.

I'm ready for the challenge, I'm ready for the new patterns, and I'm ready to be a daddy to two. I'm excited about meeting our new baby, and having them as an 'outside' part of this family. What could be more exciting than meeting your new child? There's a new person coming into this world, someone that was created by Keleigh and I. What an amazing thing to do...create humans.

I'm so excited. I'm here to help in any way that I can, to help Keleigh give birth. This baby's coming, and I'm here to catch it. The birthing pool is inflated and hanging out in the guest room, all the birth supplies are in the closet next to our room, and there's a list of things to do before and after the birth on the closet door.

Marion's ready too, as ready as she can be. She gets to hang out with her sibling while she nurses, so she's already sharing space with them, and lying close. She gives Keleigh's belly kisses. She loves to look at other babies. She's gonna be a great big sister. She has lots of fun to share too.

June 06, 2005

Garden | Marion | Songs

The garden works! I mean, I know that it should. I have no reason to believe that the seeds that I put in the ground wouldn't grow to be plants, but even knowing that, it seems magical. Everything has shown it's little sprouts, we have carrots, lots of lettuce, cucumbers, cantalope, and corn, in addition to the broccoli and tomato seedlings that were planted.

I'll have to get a picture up for you, it's pretty amazing. My little 10' x 4' garden is going to make food.




For some crazy reason, Marion slept until 10:40am yesterday. It was very strange, as she normally sleeps until sometime around 7 or 7:30. I had her laying down in the bed that's not really baby-ready (too high off the ground), so I had to sit up there and read while she slept, which wasn't bad, but I was up around 7, and I expected her to wake up just at any moment. I never expected her to sleep 3 hours more.

And in other wonderful daughter news, Marion has officially begun the walking process. She's taken a couple of steps a few times now, and has started to stand on her own. She doesn't typically lean against something and then let go, she just stands wherever she is. Crazy girl. It's really great though, I'm excited.




I wrote two and one half songs last week, which is a massive amount of production compared to what I normally write. My plan is to work on them with Ben before I actually post any sound files. Hopefully if we put our musical minds together we can create something better than either of us could make seperately.

I'm trying to vary my songs' chord structures, as I tend to get lost in the G-C-D-Em chords all the time. One song is A-C#-F#m-E, which I've never done anything like before. I like the way it sounds, but I'm having some trouble getting to a chorus.

June 02, 2005

Birthday Pictures

My little girl is officially over a year old now. I wasn't as tearful as I expected that I would be. I think that the fact that I know I'm going to be with her every day really helps. If I were at work during the week, I'd probably feel more sad about her moving to the 1+ category.

So, onward with pictures of a cutie!